To Paint or Not to Paint

Many many many years ago I fancied myself somewhat of a painter. Kind of. I did major in it in college, well, Art Studio with a concentration in painting. I spent hours and hours painting and drawing while my housemates highlighted through textbooks giving me mean looks. A lot of time also was spent just staring at whatever I was working on and thinking about it. I actually set time aside now to "think" about things. I'm not even kidding. Sometimes someone will ask me of I have decided on something. Like going somewhere, to a function or something and rather irritably I will say, "I haven't had time to think about it yet." Like looking in my calender wouldn't be sufficient. I think it's another form of the art I have perfected known as procrastination. I'm going to tell you something. Something I never even paid any attention to, that is until Rachel saw me do it for like the hundredth time and finally questioned me on it. So sometimes I will leave one thing, something I just don't "feel" like putting away in the dishwasher over and over again. Right now it's a little pink plastic shot glass that I use in the morning, I'm kidding. I use it to give Rachel's daughter juice in. Hannah loves drinking out it. Hannah hasn't been here since early August. i kid you not, it's has been washed like 700 times. I don't know why. Now it's just a matter of principle, I can't take it out. Not until Rachel sees it one more time. Then, and only then will I just pick it up and put it away. I'm odd.
Back to painting, this is another thing I haven't done in a long time. I do however spent a lot of time thinking about it. Tons really. Every fall I decide this is the fall I am going to get my stuff out again and paint. Last year I even went and bought all new paints and brushes. I painted nothing. This year this whole thought process has started over again. It's stronger now though and I have the perfect thing I want to start with. I just need to get a canvas. I'm not even going to consider stretching my own cause I could waste another three years thinking about that. I need to just go and buy one. Today, maybe, we'll see......